“It? I ast.
Yeah, It. God ain’t a he or a she, but a It.
But what do it look like? I ast.
Don’t look like nothing, she say. It ain’t a picture show. It ain’t something you can look at apart from anything else, including yourself. I believe God is everything, say Shug. Everything that is or ever was or ever will be. And when you can feel that, and be happy to feel that, you’ve found It.
Shug a beautiful something, let me tell you. She frown a little, look across the yard, lean back in her chair, look like a big rose.
She say, My first step from the old white man was trees. Then air. Then birds. Then other people. But one day when I was sitting quiet and feeling like a motherless child, which I was, it come to me: the feeling of being part of everything, not separate at all. I knew that if I cut a tree, my arm would bleed. And I laughed and cried and I run all around the house. I knew just what it was. In fact, when it happen, you can’t miss it. It sort of like you know what, she say, grinning and rubbing high up on my thigh.
Shug! I say
Oh, she say. God love all them feelings. That’s some of the best stuff God did. And when you know God loves ‘em you enjoys ‘em a lot more. You can just relax, go with everything that’s going, and praise God by liking what you like.
God don’t think it dirty? I ast.
Naw, she say. God made it. Listen, God love everything you love - and a mess of stuff you don’t. But more than anything else, God love admiration.
You saying God vain? I ast.
Naw, she say. Not vain, just wanting to share a good thing. I think it pisses God off if you walk by the color purple in a field somewhere and don’t notice.
What it do when it pissed off? I ast.
Oh, it make something else. People think pleasing God is all God care about. But any fool living in the world can see it always trying to please us back.
Yeah? I ast.
Yeah, she say. It always making little surprises and springing them on us when us least expect.”
— The Color Purple by Alice Walker
The problem with hoes tagging themselves on the Andrej tag, is not hoes tagging themselves on the Andrej tag alone.
it’s that they’re not even visually appealing.
You’re doing no favour to anyone, son.
yeah it kind of just makes you look like an actual irl bridge troll when you literally surround your selfies with pictures of ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE ON THE PLANET
why would you do that to yourself
omg, funny. I’ve long since been irked by this.
And like Pete Campbell, success isn’t as he imagined it as a younger man. “Teenagers have a much clearer perspective of who they are than when they’re 30, you know?” he says. “A teenager can say, ‘I really believe in animals, and I want to be a veterinarian and you should pursue your dreams…’ But most people, when they grow up, they’re like, ‘f*** animals. And f*** your dreams! My dreams got s*** on, so will yours!’ They stop being the pure colours they once were and turn into these stomped out shadows of who they thought they would be.”
What sort of a person did you think you would become?
“I thought I’d be an adult!” He looks outraged, as though he’s been robbed. “I remember looking at 30 year olds and thinking, ‘He smells like an adult, the things he does are adult’. But now I realise that they’re just teenagers who got older. You might do adult things like shave your face and pay your taxes, but you have a lot of the same insecurities, a lot of the same socially awkward abilities and, um, not-awkward abilities.”
We both notice the irony that he said that last part awkwardly. But I don’t want to mention it. It might be awkward.
“I think in America we just look at people’s careers and assume they’re happy,” he continues. “So it can be difficult to then get rid of the idea that professional success will complete me.”
These days, Mr Kartheiser isn’t even pursuing success in the conventional sense. He avoids late-night talk shows and the interview circuit. He doesn’t chase big movie roles, preferring instead to make tiny, experimental independent films. This summer, he’s doing a small play in San Jose before Mad Men gears up again for season six.
“Eventually,” he says, “you start coming to terms with the fact that maybe we’re not meant to feel complete at all.” And with that, he gets up to leave. The interview doesn’t feel complete. But that’s probably just as well.
Someone once said, “This guy is who James Franco tries to be.”